A Story of Rebirth: From Despair to Freedom

For many, the New Year is seen as a time of pondering what has been and what is to come. A time of letting go and nurturing what is to be born or reborn.

I also am personally sitting with where my life has been and where it is going.

In this process, one thing shines bright on the horizon…a powerful intention and knowing that this is the year that I finish the book on Somatic Awakening®. A fire has been lit underneath me to more fully share with others the potency and possibility that Somatic Awakening® offers in healing and awakening our lives.

Even though I do have an e-book, “The Four Golden Keys of Healing,” this e-book feels like a long brochure compared to the depths of insights, stories, principles, and scaffolding that this bigger book on Somatic Awakening® offers.

To give you an example of this, as well as how Somatic Awakening® powerfully heals and what it is capable of, I share with you here an excerpt from Chapter 1 of a true story.

*Note: To protect their privacy, the name and many details of the patient’s story have been changed.

How Somatic Awakening Heals

“Susan awoke again in the middle of the night in excruciating pain. She was at her wits’ end. The agonizing pain in her stomach was off the charts again. She wondered if she should go to the ER, but she’d been there so many times with the same symptoms there was probably little they could offer.

She thought of all of the specialists she had seen. So many doctors had run one test after another. But no matter how much time, energy, or money she had put into this process, no diagnosis had been found. She decided to take her newest pain medication and prayed that it would calm the agony so she could get some sleep.

Susan had tried virtually everything to treat these extremely painful episodes that had hijacked her life. But instead of the pain diminishing, it had only gotten worse. It would suddenly occur in the middle of the night, during an important meeting, or when she was driving.

The pain had whittled her life down to the point where she was now disabled. With pain so debilitating, she found basic functionality virtually impossible to achieve. She felt sad, fearful, anxious, and defeated. She just didn’t know what to do. She had an intuitive sense that her traumatic childhood had something to do with her gastrointestinal (GI) pain, but she didn’t know where to turn. Then she discovered my practice.

Susan Comes to My Office

When she walked into my office, Susan was in ongoing pain (sometimes increasing to the point that she could barely walk or tolerate the agony). She was greatly limited in what she could eat. She was very underweight and completely debilitated. I knew that it was imperative for us to get to the root of the problem because if we didn’t, she could continue to go downhill, losing even more weight and strength.

As a naturopathic doctor specializing in mind-body medicine, I have helped many people in this kind of situation get to the other side of their pain or illness and lead more balanced, healthy, peaceful lives. Therefore, I knew that it was imperative to go deep enough into the core of what was happening to make the biggest change.

As Susan began to tell me about her background, something quickly shouted out. She had experienced serious childhood abuse, beginning as an infant and continuing into childhood, and her GI symptoms started showing up as a child. I intuitively perceived that this past abuse was showing up as CPTSD (chronic post-traumatic stress disorder) symptoms in her GI (especially in her stomach.) And although Susan had gone through years of traditional talk therapy, she had not been treated from a deeper mind-body perspective.

As I got to know more about Susan’s situation, I discovered that the majority of her flare-ups were connected to any stress in her life. A fight with her boyfriend, an incident with a family member, or a difficult business call would often cause excruciating pain. This type of experience is common in people who have had acute or chronic trauma. For many, their body is in a constant state of subconscious high stress until the trauma is healed. Therefore, any small external stressors can send people with past trauma into intense overwhelm or anxiety, which can easily trigger physical issues. This is why stress would send Susan into a full-on fight-flight-freeze response and a whirlwind of emotional and physical pain.

Following naturopathic protocols, I started Susan on a shifting array of naturopathic supplements and dietary recommendations. She wanted to give these a try because she wanted to feel better. But just as I had intuitively perceived, they did little to nothing—and sometimes even made her symptoms worse. This is common when the primary cause comes from a mind-body issue.

When Susan first learned about how Somatic Awakening® heals, she sensed that this was just the type of healing she needed. As a long-term spiritual practitioner and meditator, Susan loved Somatic Awakening®. And, when we engaged it, it brought incredible and powerful healing to Susan’s internalized mind-body strife.

Healing the Core of Susan’s Pain

As we dove in deep together, using the tools and practices of Somatic Awakening®, we discovered that the core of Susan’s pain came from multiple somatic contractions or imprints held within her body. We found that Susan had many layers of traumatic childhood memories (and the contractions from these traumas) imprinted in her body. They were especially in her stomach area—the area where she experienced the majority of her physical pain. The years of childhood abuse had created deep imprints in her being, one trauma at a time.

Eventually, these contractions grew so large that they caused a tremendous collective contraction of pain, which escalated into physical pain so intense that it took over her life.

Because Susan’s pain seemed so closely connected to the energetic and emotional pain held within her body, we began by utilizing the primary aspect of Somatic Awakening called The Practice.

We start this process by connecting Susan with the powerful presence and healing potency of her Higher Self Witness Consciousness. This part of our higher self has the ability to be present, loving, compassionate, and powerfully healing to any part of her inner being, no matter how difficult or intense it was. This part of her Higher Self was then guided down and into the place in her body that needed the most attention, which was typically her stomach.

Inviting in Her Higher Self Witness Consciousness

We then invited this part of her Higher Self to connect with the imprints of past trauma stored in her body. This powerful relationship from her Higher Self Witness Consciousness to the traumatic contractions helped those contractions begin to feel safe and held in a healing container. The contractions were then able to open up and share the deeper feelings stored within them from the trauma she had lived through and the emotional and energetic imprints of that trauma that still lived within her stomach.

As Susan’s Higher Self continued to deeply show up to the energy and emotions within the traumatic contractions, they began to feel safer, to the point where they could trust her Higher Self. When this happened, they opened more deeply to be seen. In doing so, they allowed in more healing presence, love, compassion, and care.

The more the energy and emotions within the contractions began to trust and heal, the more they shared what they had lived through. And when they shared their deepest pains with trust, vulnerability, and authenticity, the powerful Conduit of Divinity was activated, and incredible healing energy began to show up and offer these parts a superhighway of even higher vibrational presence, love, and healing at the level they most deeply longed for.

This energy had the ability to exquisitely meet the pain living inside of her in the most profound ways. It was here that these painful imprints began to receive what they most wanted truly: the divine energy of absolute unconditional love, ultimate presence, oceans of nurturing, and powerful care. When this happened, the contractive energy of trauma that Susan had carried for decades began to transmute and dissolve.

Turning Toward Her Contractions with Her Higher Self 

As this process unfolded, Susan discovered that her Higher Self had the ability to be present with, nurture, and hold all of the scared parts from her childhood that had imprinted themselves in her stomach, her GI, and her entire somatic body. She found that, as she turned toward more of these contractions within—with her Higher Self fully engaged and Divine energy present—she was finally able to give the traumatized parts of herself what they most desired. These contractions were now receiving the full presence and love from her Higher Self and the Divine, which helped them feel so fully held that they finally let go of the pain they had held onto for decades. They were able to relax into the arms of the Divine energy that was there for them.

This process I outline here is a powerful aspect of how Somatic Awakening® heals our being so deeply.

As these powerful transformations occurred more and more, Susan’s life dramatically changed. Her flare-ups decreased, she was able to get back to the things she loved to do, and she was finally on the road to recovery. Susan has now healed on a very deep level—physically, emotionally, and energetically. She is a new woman, living a new life on her own terms. She rarely has GI flare-ups, she feels more at peace, and she’s freer and more in charge of her life than ever before.

How Somatic Awakening® Uplevels Your Life

I’ve worked with many people like Susan throughout my twenty years as a practicing Naturopathic Doctor and Mind-Body-Spirit Specialist. Most of them have one thing in common: trauma. If they wind up in my practice, chances are that their past trauma has not been treated on a somatic level.

I am grateful that, through my own journey of healing and the powerful guidance of Mary Magdalene, Yeshua, and other Ascended Masters, I have been shown a path that powerfully and dramatically shifts trauma in our being at the deepest somatic levels and brings about deep and lasting change. This path ultimately leads us to awaken to the essence of who we truly are.

Because Somatic Awakening® has the ability to transmute the most traumatized and densest parts of our being, including our shadow (and its false stories, energy, and emotion held within contractions of trauma), we carry less pain and suffering.

How the Great Weight of Trauma No Longer Weighs Us Down, and We Are Free

Through this process, the great weight of trauma no longer weighs us down, and we literally become lighter. And the less density we have, the less the shadow aspects of ourselves are in charge.

When this lightening of our being occurs, our shadow—our negative ego—and its hurtful voices no longer rule our lives, and we become free of their shackles.

Because this process is also deeply spiritual and connects us to a felt and lived experience of our Higher Self and the Divine, we begin to embody more of these spiritual aspects in our daily life. Here we begin to awaken to who we truly are and step into our sovereign empowerment and true authority. We open to the sacredness of our holy body, and a path is cleared ever wider for us to embody our divinity.

This mystical path of healing and freedom has the ability to crack you open so profoundly and so deeply that you begin to fully know in the core of your being that…

You are Free

You are Love

You are Sovereign

You are Empowered

You are Whole

And, in embodying these truths, you begin to live a depth of experience that is so vast it can be difficult for the mind to fathom it. Ultimately, this opens the doors to awakening, an activation of our soul’s passion in our lives, and leads us to the freedom of knowing who we truly are.”